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Testimony!!
Last night I finished Johnnys teaching. [First link to rumble] At the end when he prays he talks about how sometimes your eyes will start to flutter. Mine did just that at a speed I couldn’t have done. I didn’t see anything, however, the absolute peace I had was unmatched!! Never experienced a peace like that before. It was as if it was all over my body, not just in my belly! I continued to work, having that peace & comfort. I was later led to Nelson’s teaching on Gateways(portals) of the Spirit, soul and body. During the message he talks about “your first love” and I was immediately convicted. I paused for a moment, taking what he said in. I pondered for a moment, have I left my first love? If so, what’s caused me to leave? I continued listening and finished up my mold. Put in the paper work, clocked out and started to head home. I started praying, and I said, “Father, if I left my first love, forgive me. Cleanse me. Whatever the reason I renounce it.” As I was speaking the peace that I felt when my eyes fluttered came back, overwhelmed me to the point of straight weeping. I’m still driving wiping the tears away trying to focus on the road but this…peace, this love that I left…God led me back to!! It reminded me of when I first heard the voice of the Holy Spirit, those precious four words, “I love you beloved” on May 17, 2008 a day after my 16th birthday. The next three years I would delve into the scriptures. Straight just devouring the Word. Spending time with God was all I wanted. All of that came back in that moment. Oh what a blessing to have that childlike faith back. I asked the Lord what is happening, what was just released?? The Lord answered,
“My precious son, when you were 24 you awoke love before it was time. You knew better and you were ashamed. Instead of running to Me, seeking solace in My abounding love and forgiveness, You ran straight from relationship to religion. Trying to earn your right standing back. Legalism and the religious spirit bound you because you didn’t truly repent, you didn’t feel worthy, you felt you let me down, that I was upset with you and took from you what I created you for: to teach My Word. You laid it down, the calling I gave you at 16. You felt, ‘how can God use me when I abandoned him? How can God use me when I’m not perfect?’ My beloved, you knew you weren’t perfect before then, but that shame, that guilt that the enemy put over you kept you in bondage to that sin and you didn’t have the understanding to renounce it. You went into earn it mode. Yes, you read your Bible, you prayed you did all these things but every time you opened the word, you felt remorse. You felt you didn’t deserve my word. You spent three years with me building a foundation of my word, you read through the Bible in 9.5 months- you were fascinated with my love and my word and couldn’t get enough from the ages 16-19. Oh my son, all you had to do was repent. I would have taken that shame and punted it to hell where it belongs. That stronghold, that religious spirit has been broken off of you and you’re back in true relationship with me. Welcome home son, you are SO loved. Patty’s word about my love started this breakthrough. It forged a crack and your prayers and decrees broke it. Indeed my son, I had some praying for you. They knew every time you posted a word that there was more I wanted to share through you. Indeed there is much more I shall share through you. This moment of overwhelming-ness is you receiving your calling back, coming back into relationship with your first love and my goodness overflowing into you. I have long awaited for you to enter truly into my presence, not just knock and go away after I give you a little taste. Come all the way in beloved, come taste everything I have for you. Come into the spirit realm and take your authority I have given you. My peace I give to you, my love abounds for you. Now go, share this victory! Share this and proclaim my children can have a deeper relationship with me, they can enter the spirit realm by my spirit and I long to love them.”
I was wrecked with God’s love for me. I went home still just overwhelmed with the whole experience. I then go to bed and awake for my shift tonight. On the way in to work, I was listening to “Pieces” by Steffany Gretzinger and Bethel Music. That song took a whole new meaning and again I started weeping before God. I said “Lord can this happen while I’m not driving..” the Lord chuckled and He said, “I have you protected” now, that doesn’t mean get stupid lol but I was conscious of my driving and the presence of my Father.
“Unreserved, unrestrained
Your love is wild, your love is wild for me
It isn’t shy, it’s unashamed
Your love is proud to be seen with me
Cause you don’t give your heart in pieces
You don’t hide yourself to tease us”
Gods love for us is absolutely wild! So wild he sent his son Jesus to die for us so we could have this wonderful relationship with our Creator.
I’m not letting this go and indeed it has been a pivotal moment in my walk with Christ. To be set free from religion and releasing that sin that held me in that bondage-is a feeling I want everyone to experience. I encourage everyone to take time and ask God is there any religious spirit hindering your walk with him? Any hidden sin? Any sin that you’re trying to atone for yourself? Because my friends, it’s exhausting trying to do so. It’s a waste of time, energy and emotion. God doesn’t need your help in your forgiveness- you simply have to surrender to the finished works of Jesus and daily do your best to walk in the spirit and in sanctification. And guess what? It’s a process that doesn’t happen over night, it’s a lifelong journey. So don’t beat yourself up when you fall. Pick yourself up, RUN TO ABBA-not from him. Seek what or why you fell and learn.
I release blessings, healing, deliverance- be upon you and your families in Jesus Name!
I renounce religion, religious spirit, shame, guilt, condemnation, leviathan, witchcraft off you and your families in Jesus Name!
God is good all the time!!!
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